OMG! I can't concentrate!!!

great... since morning till now, i can't concentrate on my studies. kept surfing net. hehehe... dun blame me lah, daylight i really can't keep my mind on the books coz my aunt's nagging voice, the stupid radio which my aunt dun allow me to switch off & all the construction noise at my void deck can make me mad leh!!! only late nite when everyone & every single things become silence, then i had a peace of mind. haiz... think tonite then study again. i shall slp more in the noon. hehehe...

so i decide to upload my DnD pics & sent pics to my friends since nothing to do. hehe... eating all the junk food i found in the kitchen, getting fat soon. on leave like very sianz leh esp when u have no programme during that few days. in addition i'm having exam this coming fri! gosh... pray for me bah.

yah, to see the pics, its at my profile column, there is a link there. enjoy & drop some comments, k? =)

moody today...

now quite late liao, already 2+am but i still struggling to study for my exam. felt moody since the call i received from him juz now. duno y. the way he tok again, made me feel so hurt again. sometimes really dun feel like toking to him. then i asked him whether he had bought his air ticket to taiwan to meet up his "mistress" coz he always does things last min. & he already got it. he will be flying on the 10th Mar, back on 14th Mar. this min i felt so depressed & upset. i purposely requests from my sis to give me 9th & 10th leave so tat i could company him tat 4 days which include sat & sun. initially that 2 days belongs to my senior colleague & i actually have ask him to give it up to me. now he said he is flying off on 10th?! my heart sank after i hung up his call. i nvr tel him anything. he always thinks of himself 1st. y can't i go since i'm on leave too? i starts to hate guys some of the times... they are really selfish & big man's ideas everytimes.

had a quarrel wif my fcuking cousin. she is damn fcuking too much. my aunt waited an hour for her downstair & she nvr appeared. then after she reached home, when my aunt told her she cooks her share, she said, " u know tat i dun like to eat this & u still cook for wat?" i really can't bear with the attitudes she had towards my aunt & i juz said, "then dun eat lah!" she heard it & she not happy, then she shot at me. i shot back at her again. my aunt stopped the conflict. i really dislike her, to think tat she can behave like a queen in the house. fcuk u!!! she has a job & she still asking for pocket money every single day!!! my aunt not working at the moment also, y can't she think for her own mother!!! every mth din even give my aunt any allowance, ok? wat a damn fcuking bitch. even though she is my cousin, i still hate her like hell, ok? dun expect me to friend friend wif her coz she sukz!!! she stole my money a few times & i think its worth of hundreds dollars in total, ok? not only mine, my brother, my another aunt & even her own mother are victims too!! duno understand y we have to tolerate her. hope she faster move out once after married! her fcuking husband is also one of the kind. same pattern as her. only know how to ask for money, duno how to give money to parents. fcuk... faster get out of my life!!!

On leave liao!!!

finally NSC DnD 2006 ended with a fantastic bollywood dance with 2 "entertaining, sexy" dancers last nite. the show was nice, hosted by Hossan Leong, the Singapore Boy. he was kinda silly when entertaining us wif all his lame jokes, funny songs & stupid actions.

i kept going ard to take pics wif my NSC friends. everyone was so so so pretty(including me! =p), enjoying every moments taking pics wif them. the dishes wasn't tat nice also & there is no shark fins?! i was actaully thriving for tat dish leh... i missed my fav mango puddings also, the deserts of the nite coz i changed to another table. esther & sharon(my 2 pregnant friends, soon to be mother liao)left 1st so i shifted my place to charlene's table. this yr sitting management sukz. mixture of staffs from different clincs. they should put up a table for each dept like nurses 1 table, lab tech 1 table, appt 1 table but they arranged like 3 from sub clinic, 7 from private clinic & sometimes not familiar with staffs from another dept, how to interact huh? & there is no fun!!! hate this yr arrangement.

after dinner, i went ard catching pple to take pic with me, esp Dr Chong coz he dressed like as a tamil lady & he is involved in the dance. tat is 1 of the sexy gal i mentioned lah.. i actually went to 1 of the room to find him coz he asked me to shoot pics for him, pre, during & post make-up of him, then was kana chased out by this fcuking woman. hate her, i mean if we not allow to see, then say nicely lah! said until like we are parasites invading her territory. damn fcuking bitch, i hate her since the moment i knew her.

then think had a misunderunderstanding wif my friend, she went off straight when we were busy taking pics around. kinda felt bad coz left her out sitting alone(though she joined us for some the pics, juz tat we kept taking & taking, without realising her tiredness) & she was dancing the whole nite, could sense she is very tired after the whole nite. i sms her to apolognise but she is not angry. juz tat she felt extremely tired. hope she has a gd rest after DnD ended. the dancers had been dancing since mid of jan, burning their lunch time, after work & eve sat noon. poor things, hope they had a gd gd gd rest after everything ends...

went back around 11+ after all the great fun of snapping. serene sent me back as she has a car. tout of go clubbing after the DnD but dropped the idea coz i had to work next day (tat is today!!!) & have to wake up quite earli leh. actually i am sabotaged by NSC!!! i din intend to go to work, only intend to attend the talk!! wat a freak...

today i woke up wif a spinning head, everything seems so heavy. i forced myself to wake up. i was like this becoz the nite before, i was coughing like hell, tossing in my bed until 2am, then i took priton to slp. fcuk.. immediately take effect & i was dropped dead on my bed until my hp ring my head off in the morning.

dragged myself to work with my 2 heavy legs, actually dun feel like going but since promised liao, juz go lah. i wil still get $70 OT for the whole day & my job very simple. only pressed the bell when the talk by the speaker is up(so-called the timer) but mainly adnan did the timer & i only patted his back to wake him up case he fell asleep. hehe..

the whole day talk was ok lah, some quite interesting & some i nearly dozed off. i was trying to pinch myself to keep myself awake but it doesn't help.. then my stupid cough. my fcuking throat kept irritated me & i actually ran out of the hall to cough till my face turned red. the pressure was so great & i started having headache. then there was a few times i endured the trigger within my throat. bearing the irritation in my throat till tears coming out of my eyes. dun wan to keep running in & out of the room coz not nice mah.

finally everything ended, was very tired too coz din slp well last nite. so i decide to drop dead on my bed after i reached home. dun care whether my stomach was signalling for food or my irritated throat got into my way. I JUZ WAN TO HAVE A GD SLP!!!

later nite, he msg me whether i woke up anot so i returned his call. juz becoz my voice sound awful, he said that i was mumbling away, din hear clearly wat i said, like i dun feel like toking to him. kept repeating "if u dun feel like toking, then we tok next time". i was like?! halo, u toking like a train, nvr give me a chance to defend back myself. & i was still sick, he nvr showed concern at all!!! since the day i took MC, i nvr heard from him asking any of these questions, "ru ok?, how ru getting on?, any better?" or any sentences tat makes me feel better. all he knows is "pour salt & vinager" on my sorrows. most of the times when he was on MC, i will sometimes fake MC juz to come to his place to take care of him. or even if i can't fake MC, i will call up straight after he sms me, telling he is sick, asking how is he, better get more rest, etc, etc.. but tat day when i sms him in the morning, he only got back to me in the late nite! & even said tat i dun sound sick at all! i dun blame if he is busy wif his trainings but when he said i dun sound sick at all, i felt hurt. its becoz of u, i got myself sick, ok? suffering all these endless cough esp in the nite, disturbing the rest of my family.. really getting very tired...

btw the NSC DnD pics i will upload later! gotta slp now, late liao. i will be on leave the whole week but having exam this coming fri. have to crack my brains again...

NSC DnD tml!!! yeah!!!

tml is my NSC DnD nite & our theme is "Shanghai Meet Bollywood". Looking forwards for tml dinner & dance! Definately will take a lot of pics!!! Esp Doctor Chong!!! he is dressing as a lady!!! hehehe... can't wat for the fun to come!!! =)

Our 5th year anniversary...

ytd is our 5th yr together. really can't imagine we had been together for so so so long. everythings seem like happen ytd & how times really flies...

haiz... & again we had a small conflict ytd. he came to my place to have dinner & asked me to go to his place to slp over. tout of watching movies but i was too tired. so we went straight home & slept shortly after settle everythings. to me, it seems like normal everydays, doesn't look like a special day. mayb we been together for very long liao, i guess...

he juz called me, telling me he confirm going to taiwan to see daoyi ALONE without me. Then I shouldn’t put my leave during 9th & 10th since he is leaving on the 10th or 11th. Haiz.. sian...

when is he going to change his behaviour? I kinda pissed off...

last nite he asked me to go to his place to stay over coz he booked out. had dinner wif him at causeway point & there he goes again. nagged at me, throw cold water at me, etc, etc... duno y, i somehow kinda pissed off by him but i juz kept quiet & let him buzz & buzz & buzz at my ears. haiz... y he sill dun change his attitudes? still behaving like a small kid. few more days later will be our 5th yr anniversary. can't belive tat we been together for so so so long... really hope tat he will change better coz sometimes i really can't stand him..

today met up wif charlene & serene for shopping. left him alone at home coz i know he won't come wif us coz we definately go for long hours of shopping. somemore he is a LAZY pig, always slp until noon then wake up. i always have a hard time pulling him out of the bed. i REAlly hate doing tat!

we gals went to bugis for shopping. wants to buy something for our DnD nite & our theme is "when shanghai meets bollywood". so can either wear shanghai or bollywood outfit. i choose to wear bollywood. we walked round the bugis village & din really found anything we fancied, then we went orchard. we shopped from 1pm to 9 pm!!! whoa kaoz! charlene went off at 5+ coz she had dinner wif her family which left serene & me to shop. bought a purple skirt(for my DnD), a black tube(tout of wearing for DnD but the 2 gals said not suitable & i quite like it so bought it for my own wearing) & few accessories. think i spent too much & actually i got outfit for the DnD but becoz i'm being sabotaged by phonnia, i got to get something to match wif adnan! adnan & i are selected to dress as best couple, representing f/g/h clinic. gosh... hope tat nite won't create too much of "fun" for adnan & me on the stage!

1st MC for the year 2006 & its valentine's day today!!! wtf!!!

body aching since the time i woke up this morning. tout i was having fever & i think i got the infection from him. he was sick the last few days... actually i also didnt really slp well coz of my aunt's snoring. so loud & i was like disturbed by the noise from her which made me more sick & worse! was struggling whether to go for work anot.. then finally msg sis lim to tell her i'm sick & tat was ard 6.30am. msg to my girls also coz i promised to buy lunch for them as we are having lunch talk today too. felt abit gulity.

i slept until 1+pm before i went to see the Dr. though better but still felt weak. after seeing the Dr, duno y got the feelings like someone was accussing me for faking MC coz its valentine's day today esp the expression i saw from the Dr when i requests for 1 day MC. though its valentine's day but tat doesn't mean i HAVE to spend the day celebrating with my bf! Somemore he is in the camp, not booking out today. so wat's the point for faking MC when i dun have anyone celebrating with me? make me feel like nobody believe that i'm sick... even he said that i dun sound sick to him. so hurting when i heard tat from him... fine, juz think watever u all want to think. i dun give a damn... =(

An exhausted day for me...

Covering F/G clinic the whole day today coz charlene on exam leave & adnan on leave. then phonnia on MC also!!! Im down wif only 3 staffs working today!!! very tiring though its not tat busy but can u imagine most of the treatments for the day done by myself? haiz..

luckily didin't doze off during my evening classes but some of the teachings doesn't get into my brain & my mind was actually on someone else the whole nite! then he msg me... was surprised coz he is the person i'm thinking of. didn't expect him to sms me.. anyway i juz kinda miss him "as a friend", tats it, no other special reasons....

Another week has passed...

This whole week didn't blog coz having classes & clinic evenings. tout i will be very tired by end of today but so far so gd leh! hehe... today evening clinic not tat much pple & 4 staffs working but still... haiz... did some quiz online, very bored, nothing to do..

This quiz is "how fuckable are you?" & my results as below:-

"You're kinda cute!"
You are 45 fuckable!
Ok, so you can attract a few people. But, don't get too cocky. I said a few! Not many people have erotic thoughts about you. Perhaps it's because you're too hard-to-get. Ya know, have high standards and live in a fantasy of everything being perfect and grand. Well, it's not that way, sweetie! Perhaps it's because you're too shy. Ya know, shy can be cute, but it can also be annoying. If you're always nervous and insecure, it's hard to see you as much else. Be bold! Be sexy!

ya, i admit i am not an attractive gal & i want to be myself! tats it! moreover i already got a stubborn, lazy, bad-tempered, big man's ideas blah blah blah hubby of 5 years by my side. nothing more to ask for! =)

Classes starting tml!!!

my SIM classes is starting tml for my 2nd semester liao. then my SIM friend sms me saying that there will be changes again for the 2nd module. there will no lessons during march, only starting in april. fcuk... i can't attend if my hmdp approved. & which means i will only start my lesson during july! gosh, my graduation day seem so far away.. think my friends in 24th intake will pass out 1st before i do(i'm from 23th intake). so messy & i still got to retake my legal perspective classes!!! arghhh...

Being stalked!!! Or watever...

Dragged myself up coz it's a Saturday. Felt very slacked but can't lazing around coz gotta go to his home to pass some stuff to his mom. He is not coming back today coz of his trainings in tekong. Will only be back on Monday.

After I got the things settled at his place, I went causeway point to collect his hp. He sent in for servicing before CNY. The queue at the nokia shop was damn long & I was damn thirsty at tat time so went down to basement get bubble tea milk. Got a craving for it. It was also long queue there! I waited for 20min or more before I got my drink.

There I went up the lift & I realized one thing. I had forgotten to take the straw!!! Kaoz... Wat an idiot me! Enduring the dehydration I'm having, I dragged myself back to the nokia shop. & Hey! 3 more customers, it will be my turn liao! Hehe so I juz waited patiently.

Back to his home, it was still early. So I watched a vcd starring by Andy Lau. A love story & gosh. He is damn handsome! I like him so much! My favorite idol since I was in primary 4! =p

Then his brother asked me to join in their "luo hei". Great! Haven't eaten it since last yr! (Did I eat it last yr? Can't remember...) Anyway, it taste great!!! yummy!!!

After tat rushed off to meet Kelward for dinner at J8. Had delifance dinner. It had been some time since I last met him. He is a botak now! Muahaha. Cannot get used seeing him like this. We started to chat on his trainings in civil defense. It is totally different from army loh. He said until like very slacked during his trainings but on & off they will have tough trainings too.

On my way back home, I found myself being stalked! An Indian man (think it's a foreign worker) followed me quite a distance. Initially he was behind me, then he walked pass me & turned around to look at me. He stared at me for quite sometimes, I feel like shouting at him, "See wat see?! Never see a woman before ar?" then he walked a distance & stopped, like pretending to look around but actually looking out for me! I wasn’t afraid coz there were still a lot of pple at the area & its only 9+pm. I dragged my time go buy newspapers at one of the shops & when I came out, he no longer around. So faster picked up my speed & run for my life! Then there he was again, further in front of the pave way I'm going to walk by. He turned & saw me! Again he pretended like he taken the wrong way & U-turn again towards my direction! He stared at me & I stared hard back at him, then he walked pass me. So I picked my speed, faster walked to my block. I purposely pretended to turn around to look whether he still following me & YES HE IS!!! He was behind me, walking the same direction as me! FCUK! I faster cross the road but from the side of my eyes, I saw him opposite the road. There he was again, like trying to catch up wif me. I slowed down my paces & he kept looking back at my direction! He also slowed down his speed! Freak!!! I then called up my aunt to wait for me at the lift, juz in case. After I turned in my block, I no longer see him anywhere.

Nowadays, so many rapists around & they are getting bolder & bolder. Doing all the offences even in daylights! Some days I really hope there will be a new punishment for them. 1st offence, give them another chance but if they commit the 2nd time again, for my suggestions, they SHOULD be castrated!! Not that my suggestion for the penalty is too heavy but its them who dun wan to amend themselves after another chance is given to them! If for me, I will kick DAMN hard at their groin areas, make them suffered the pain!!!

Sianz! Sianz!! Sianz!!!

i am juz sianz here, nothing much to write.. everyday routine the same, work, eat, rest & work again! tml got evening clinic also, my OT to replace raihanah coz she is dancing for NSC DnD. can't wait for the day to come! our theme for the DnD is bollywood! hehe, i already got the dress liao but thinking of adding in more things leh.. duno tat day wan to go clubbing after DnD anot. i ask around 1st! hoping to club tat day!!! =p

Damn pissed off today...

AM, wound clinic. pts loads was ok & i didn't expect still got quite a no. of chinese pts coming for their dressing today.

PM. got 2 seesions of different clinics running & i'm damn pissed off this noon becoz of... dun wish to say ar, got headache now. i wan to vent my anger in here!
@#%$&#% watever vugular words i think of lah.

VERY VERY PISSED OFF ar!!! ARGHHHHH...