upset....

7+ years of courtship...

went through numerous of break ups & patch ups...

million tonnes of tears flowing....

depression & suffocation...

why can't i have a simple & sincere blessings...?



on the hand:-

pressurized to get settled down...

pressurized to get a own flat...

pressurized to have own kids...

double suffocation from people who care...



really very tired becoz of all these stuffs... eyes are very puffy & swollen now coz i cried for few hours juz now... tried to control myself but i can't... i can't blame anyone but to blame on how my life turns out to be. if really its not time yet, i shall wait then... no matter wat happen, i pray hard for tat day to come...



ps. no comments & replies will be responded to this entry coz i dun wish to bring up again...