Pig's entry

I love pigs!!! Can i have one? Pls...

Awwww.... So cute....

3 more days to go before i can feel him again... missing his everything now, kisses, cuddles, hugs.... *blush*

better or not?

cheer myself with this weird looking ghost ice-cream today. tastes milky but yummy... guess wats its name?

KASPER ~ !!!

didnt know my buddy, kasper become a model of King's IceCream Company...

ya, i know i am very lame. i juz feel so bored... absence really makes heart grows fonder but y i felt more lonely than anything else? =(

Missing him badly...

Miss him badly now, 2 more weeks to go before i can have him by my side again...

felt upset again becoz of work... really took my hat off for certain people. i can't imagine how am i going to work with these gp of people when time goes by. i classified them as -

1. Super Duper Thick Face
2. Super Duper Anxious
3. Stuck up Arrogant Attitude
4. Hypocrite

for 2 mths, i had faced all the ugliness in this dept. i hate them so badly that i often got suffocated during work. no point bringing up the matters coz i believe good words will be put up for them. they are antiques of the dept. try to bear with it but sometimes i shed tears for no reasons. too stressed made me behave like this & i think my old friend, depression is coming back anytime. today nearly dropped tears in front of my pt behind tat big black goggles of mine. tried to hold back & excuse myself away for awhile. my mind is so confused & cramped with stuffs coz i keep thinking abt wat will happen next after i finish. for days, even in my sleep, i can dream abt the worst situation i will have. wtf?! y can't i have a peaceful mind? i actully wan to find someone to confide with but my heart hold me back. reason? coz i dun wan my tears to drop in front of u guys. felt so useless if i really weep. frankly speaking i dun mind working extra hard but i mind working with these gp of colleagues. at times i really missed my ex-taka colleagues before i joined nursing line. tat was the nicest bunch of friends i ever worked with. i even try to grab watever OTs i can but this is due to another reason, another personal problem i have. i really wan a break from all these. now getting headache, cried & cracked my brain too hard.

ps. i wrote this entry, doesn't mean i need attention or sympathy. i juz wan to vent my anger & sadness here. i will be fine after awhile. if not, my last way out is to go back to my usual bad habits - puff & drink. but at the moments, i'm trying to save up so i wont spend on these unnecessary stuffs. really thank u for ur listening ears.

tired & no mood, tats all i can say....

3 days since he left for walaby for trainings... not used to it coz nearly every weekend i spent my time at his place... we had a minor quarrel again before he left too... & that day he left, went to work, i received new from work which really made me so pissed off... was really unhappy & moody for that fucking 2 days, really wanna get out of that fucking place... i had never been so distressed after since working in this dept... tried so hard to control but sometimes people could see through me.

ps. for those colleagues who read my blog, pls dun bother to ask y. juz pretend nothing happen coz even if u ask, i dun wish to say too. sorry for being rude but i really thank u for ur concern.